Saturday, July 29, 2006

Easy

It doesn't take much. A single word usually does the trick. "Hello." It's enough for me. One hello, and all is forgiven. Every slight, all negligence, each missed opportunity, erased. Our slate is clean, except for the stains the disappointment left behind. But that doesn't matter, because he's here saying, "hello." Availability. He's available now, and that's what's important. So what if he doesn't offer an explanation and an apology never falls from his lips. Hello means "I want you." And "I want you" is better than "I'm sorry."

And there are times when no words are needed. Memories work everything out. That time when we sat on the couch. My head in his lap, his hand in my hair. I see it playing before my eyes, with different people on a different couch in a make believe place. They're not real, but we were. So what if he doesn't call. Who cares if he doesn't write. I'll let it slide, just to sit on the couch again.

What can I say? I'm easy.

17 comments:

Cece said...

We all are. *sigh* But why is it we have to practically give blood or at least a heartfelt apology for every minor indiscretion? Or is that just my relationship??

Taki said...

Yea, its usually pretty much that easy.....


.....for both of us :)

Solomon said...

You say easy. I say forgiving and understanding. Ain't nothing wrong with that girl.

Jodi said...

I love when no words are necessary.

Sangindiva said...

I guess I'm easy too...
*sigh*

jailbait said...

Easy like Sunday morning...and I ain't ashamed!

Buffy said...

You know it's good when sitting on the couch does it.

Rebelioness said...

I'm as easy as first grade math!For you it's the couch scene; for me it's a laugh and an embrace. I could be mad as HELL but once he makes me laugh, it's a wrap...until he pisses me off again.

But once I laugh I guess I realize it can't be that serious to begin with if I am able to break a smile. Life's too short...

Elizabeth said...

The couch...the best!

Deanna said...

OOOHHH, what are the odds I'd click on your blog in the midst of a relationship crisis of my own?

So far, we are stalemated yet...maybe he'll think to say hello..though I think I might not be as easy. Actually, come to think of it, I'm pretty freaking hard.

~Deb said...

Sometimes people can't murmur the words, "I'm sorry", simply out of pride. But, they do it in other ways, which if you're accepting and understanding, you'll definitely know without a doubt, that it's truly an apology.

I know, because I'm sometimes like that too.

Serena said...

I've definitely been that girl but am trying hard not to be.

tilda said...

I know that feeling...

It's not easy... I don't think it's easy for you to even claim it's easy.
Some people can say 'hello' and wipe their slat cleans, some people can look at you and you fall all over again...

It's not easy at all.

Maybe it's something else......


x

Diane Mandy said...

Sadly, I know this feeling all too well. But you kow what? When you decide that a relationship (no matter what kind) isn't working for you or isn't right for you or doesn't make you happy, you'll give up on it. Far from easy, but in the end better for your overall mental and emotionnal state.

Lynn said...

I try so hard not to be that....so hard. So far it's working, but someone will wear me down, they all seem to.

Trish said...

You are a marvelous writer.

I haven't been by in a few weeks b/c my work surfing has been curtailed, so I'm catching up.

Eatapeach said...

Your emotions and words are heartfelt and passionate.

I just wrote a post about "I'm sorries". Check it out and let me know if you like.